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Vulnerable moments… with MOM

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14088980_10153648552325736_195864143_nYes. Vulnerable moments can be there too. Totally. Even if it’s fucking uncomfortable.

Some days you just gotta take a moment to sit down with yourself. Or with your mom 😊

To lower all the barriers and get ‘naked’ to see what’s actually going on, to acknowledge and receive it, to change it and out-create it.

I’m not pretending to be enlightened. I don’t have it all ‘right’, nor do I have the right f*cking ‘conscious’ question or awareness all the time. Especially for myself that is. For others it’s way easier and a totally different story.

When you are sitting on top of your own mountain with a head full of ideas, questions and ‘have to’s’ – like I was today and yesterday – it just such a blessing to have people in your life that have your back and be with you, like my mom has been all my life, with a question, a different perspective or simply being.

I used to think I was a failure when I asked for help, which is not true. I’ve learned that by now, and still it’s a practice for me to ask for help when I require it and to actually receive it.

I used to think that being vulnerable is weak or pathetic, which is not true either.

Being truly vulnerable with myself usually feels like I’m falling apart, which might be true in a way cause I get to look at what is bugging me, fucking me up or the conclusions that I use to define me, which stop me from Being creative.
The ‘good’, ‘bad’, ‘beautiful’ and ‘ugly’.

I don’t really expose it a lot.
And in case you didn’t notice: life’s not always pretty folks 😊
Everyone has their shit and whobbles going on. Including me. It’s ok.

And usually after those highly uncomfortable moments where I just wanna kill everyone and everything, I come out being greater. WAY greater.

OMG I’m so grateful for my mom and I know not everyone has such a relationship with their parents. One that keeps on inspiring each other to be greater and greater and allowing you to be as you are in every 10 seconds.

Thank you mama Renée, you rock my world.

So happy I choose you 😉

❤️✨💙
And this beautiful song by Mike Posner sums it up quite well 🙏🏻

Kindness is Magic…

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Merlijn Wolsink - KindnessAmsterdam Central Station. The energy can be intense, heavy, chemical and all senses kinda get amplified over there. I tell ya, Amsterdam Central Station can be one happy place… Mostly not. Lol.
Anyways…

“Can I have a coffee please?” “Black… sir…?” “Yes please.”

I noticed that the lady that was serving me had a super heavy “Oh dear… I hope I didn’t say anything wrong…?” energy around her. Don’t we all know that one? I played with it a bit to see if I could get through the heavy stuff, that she most likely picked up or got dumped onto her while working over there. I figured, when she is so aware of the heavy, she might pick up some lightness too 

I just looked at her and gently smiled, did not say a word, although I thought to her “Hi sweetness. How are you today?” When she finished making my coffee she looked up, stared me in the eyes, looked confused and got a bit uncomfortable. Then the heaviness broke away. She lit up, her eyes opened up and swelled up a bit. She sighed, smiled and handed me my coffee. “Thank you.”

When I sneaked by and looked back inside 5 minutes later, she actually stood up straight and still smiled while making coffee. That made my day, or evening at that point.

Some other people might have thought “What the f*** are you looking at?!? Do you wanna f*** me or something? Am I wearing something you own?”

Sometimes it takes courage to get up and live in a reality that can be so unkind, Sometimes, everywhere you look people will reject you, reject themselves or have their barriers up. Those wall can be so thick that it seems hard to see the kindness and sweetness that IS there too. Everywhere…

And, your true, natural kindness creates magic everywhere you go…

Thank you sweet coffee lady. For receiving me, my crazy smile AND for receiving your own smile.
How does it get even better?

Why do I show my body to the world?

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Merlijn Wolsink by Stef Lohstroh en Isabeau BosscherHow much time do we spend living with our bodies? Our entire lives…?

At a young age we are told to cover our bodies up, dress ourselves appropriately.
And if you don’t have the ‘appropriate’ body size or image you should cover yourself up all the way.
“Don’t show your body. It’s hideous. Put some clothes on.”
Does that contribute to the freedom of living?

I choose not to see bodies as something to be ashamed of.
I choose to stop beating my body and other peoples body down for so called imperfections.
I choose to stop hiding my body, it’s uniqueness, beauty and everything it is.

I’m not saying “go run around naked”… or what would that take? LOL.
Be smart and be aware of where you are and who you are with. What can they receive?
You could make it easy on yourself to not get undressed when people will judge the hell out of you.
And if you’re willing to be judged, receive the judgment and create a change in the world, present the possibility that bodies are to be proud of, to be nurtured, honored and cared for, go ahead…

Not out of rebellion. For the possibility of the greatness of embodiment and vulnerability.

Have you noticed that children have no judgment of their body? They mostly just enjoy it and they touch and show their private parts with no point of view. It’s there and part of their body… why wouldn’t they? When they get older, all thoughts and judgments they have learned, picked up on and created themselves on top of that, sticks in their universe, which will most likely create limitation in their universe, body, the way they function and even how they do business and the ability to receive money.
It’s not who they are originally. All judgments we carry along are extra weight we don’t need.

What if we could create together with our kids? Beyond the perversion of this reality?
What would it be like if they have a different reality with their body? One that supports them and makes having a body a joyful, blissful and pleasant experience? Their own?

Because… how long will they have to live with their bodies? Their whole entire life…?

What if we were to to give kids the information they require? Increase they awareness, ask them questions about what they would like to choose and create?

What if we would let our kids know at early age:
“There are some things you have to be aware of… Touching your body is not wrong. Showing your body is not wrong. Enjoying your body is not wrong. Inside the house you can be yourself, run around naked and touch your body. You could even choose to do that outside, at school and all the other places you go. That is always your choice. Just know… this reality is a little interesting and generally not so kind… People will think and say you are weird, bad, dirty, and inappropriate. Most people won’t like it and they will judge you. When you will grow older you even have the chance to be send to prison for being naked on the street, for showing your body and touching it. It’s considered to be very wrong, which is just a point of view. What would you like to choose? Would you be willing to be aware of what other people will say, think and do? So you can be yourself at anytime? To dress yourself ‘appropriately’ when you ‘have to’ and do what is required for you to be happy with your body?”

I have lived in this reality long enough to know what I’m ‘allowed’ to do or not do. I know when I can push the limits a little or a lot, or not. I’m willing to receive the judgments too. Just judge me. And my body. It’s ok. Because… It’s not really mine anyway and not my body’s either :).

I’m freaking proud of my body. All of it. And I’m working pretty darn intensely at changing all the judgments and insanity that’s still lingering around that are preventing me to fully enjoy living this life.
And living in this reality… requires a body.

Be Proud. Honor. Nurture. Care For. Vitalize. Be Grateful. Enjoy.

If you you had no judgment of your body and other bodies… what would life be like?

Kill or the Be Killed?

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Kill or be killed? Merlijn WolsinkWOW. I nearly killed someone today! And nearly got killed…

People think I’m a sweet guy. I am. And… people have tried to kill my sweetness from early age on, by being mean or trying to hurt me with their evil. They still try to… And I have changed.
Read my experience of 1,5 hours ago below…

Between my in person sessions in Rotterdam today I was sitting on a park bench in a park around the corner, having another coaching call, wearing my mobile headset. A bit of sun and a bit of shade. Wonderful.

Then three end 20 year old guys walked by, spreading some wonky energy across the field. Do you recognize evil, danger or insanity when it’s present? Yes. If you are willing to see it. I was and I knew I had to be aware.

The first two just walked by kinda looking at and ignoring me. The last one stood next to me and asked me if he could have my phone. I said “No my friend, I’m in the middle of a business call, please move on, thank you”. Then he got angry, said he was not my friend and didn’t have anything to do with my business, yada yada yada… “Just give me your fucking phone” and he pulled out a knife

I told my client to hold on for a second…

Before, I would have ran away… Now I have tools and awareness to deal with this. I gathered all the energy that I had available to me, I stood up intenser and greater than ever, I made my eyes fire up and my body ready to rumble, kill if necessary and I did an energetic demon clearing process, all at the same time in about 5 seconds. This was new to me…

Have you ever seen a lioness protect her cub? Well… I teach my clients to be bigger and greater than the insanity that surrounds them or whatever they encounter and there I was: eye in eye with a guy that was apparently willing to hurt and kill me for my phone… and I was willing to kill him first.
Surprise! Even for me…
Nobody f***ing kills or hurts me or my body for anything.

So, the second I stood up, not even carrying a knife but with the energy I was going to deliver at him, I said “Back the f*** up, cause I will kill you first”. He got intrigued, backed up and got confused.
The other guys came to the rescue, I guess they saw I meant it even without weapon. My whole body was vibrating like crazy… I think I never had so much intensity coursing through my body as if I could explode in just a couple of seconds. They told him to come along and said to me: “Please calm down, you know better than this, please don’t hurt him” LOL. Really? He put his knife away, still tried to burn my eye out with his cigarette, but his hand didn’t even make it close to my face.

They walked away. I shaked it off and continued my coaching call with my client that was somewhat surprised and silent as my headset had not moved away from my mouth.

Even though I was buzzing a little bit, I wasn’t even upset and kinda amazed to where I’ve come over the last years.
I had actually been willing to save myself and totally choose ME.

Don’t be a victim. Be Aware.
You have to be the energy that changes a situation.
Sometimes you gotta be willing to kill, even though you won’t have to.
Not your fear but your awareness and energetic capacities will keep you and your body safe.

How about this for self-defense and protection of your and your body?
How does it get better than this?

And by the way: No worries, I’m totally ok!

#TrueStory #BeAware #UnleashYourOwnWizard

*** Part 2 ***

Thanks to everyone for the heartwarming and caring messages!

I’m glad too my body is still alive and I wonder if I would have even encountered this if I would not be able to deal with this. Everything at the moment seems to be rising to extremes…
Funny, with the ‘work’ I ‘do’ I seem to kinda catalyze changes everywhere I go and its getting stronger every day. I got to discover some power, potency and presence that I didn’t know I had and If it would have been the best action to run away, I would have probably done so…

Sometimes in instantaneous ‘knowing’ you just know something else is required. I wondered what Change I have created in that guys universe?
Who knows what has been going on in his life? This reality can be so sad, dark and malevolent. And yes, you got to be aware of what you are dealing with, so you can choose to create a change in the moment.
So many people grow up in and with unkindness and violence and you may encounter those broken and distorted souls everywhere you go. That’s no excuse, it’s just reality.

No fear required, just awareness. No “be careful” just “be aware and out-create that moment” Do or be what is needed. I sincerely wish him more possibilities and a greater life beyond pulling a knife to get something he probably doesn’t even really want.

What would it be like to Create a reality and world worth living in?