Tag: hospital

Busy check up today, September 12 2016

This is me.

Body is doing great. YES, I still have check ups after last years adventure, when things got really messy.

I’m making peace with my life and the world around me. For as far as I can, I’ve been looking at where my life is still messy and I’m cleaning up. My sick and hospital adventure created a lot of weird things with other people, that I am not happy with or proud of at all.

It’s bringing up so much than I ever wanted to create, or for people to get stuck with.

Not all fun, fairly uncomfortable yet very freeing to finally give it air to breathe and change.

I’ve had enough of being resentful in any way.
I’m alive, that is what matters to me.

I used to resist hospitals and medicine in all forms and ways. I was convinced and told that it was not ‘conscious’ enough and I was stupid enough to believe it.

Now I don’t resist anymore. It’s a choice to create with and to receive help when I need it, even though I didn’t want to at first.

I realized I used to not show or share this part of my life, to uphold a certain image.

“Will people still like me if they know that I have my flaws too? That I’m not perfect? That I landed up in the hospital while I’m facilitating body work and consciousness after all… So I should be enlightened and perfect, right…?”

Like it’s not allowed to be there.

Fuck that.
This is part of my life too.
This can be on Social Media too

This is me, with all my good, bad, ugly and beautiful.

Consciousness includes everything and judges nothing. Everything is possible and everything is a possibility.

So truly grateful for everyone that contributed to me when I needed them so much, to go through this and recover, to help me to build up my life again.

If I ever created any weird shit in your universe, by not being present, or by making things secret, or with whatever, I’d like to know. Please reach out to me and let’s talk.

Celebrate life and creation my friends.
It’s precious. Enjoy it. 

❤️