What if PAIN doesn’t have to be forever?
Earlier this week I realized that… I have had NO PAIN in my body for at least 4 months.
I was waiting for the train and just noticed my body walk and stand lightly on the train platform.
It was such an amazing ‘light flash’ moment and an acknowledgement of what I’d apparently taken for granted.
YES, I’ve been creating towards this, especially the last year where I made the demand of me to have more joy with my body than I ever imagined possible. It worked! How does it get even better?
So funny how we usually mostly or only acknowledge the heavy and painful things, and if it’s light and easy. Mostly light and easy are not even considered to be true or real and it goes by unacknowledged.
It’s not that I don’t sense anything anymore in my body. I’ve had many intense awarenesses in, through and going by my body from which pretty much none have turned into PAIN locked into my body.
WOW.
Out-creating my own reality with my body. I’ve known what tools to use and BE with, while being in this world, living and walking around on this planet, having people around me, creating my life. And if something was about get locked in, I’ve been able to easily change it.
My body is so light and easy with everything. Food, movement, sex, healing, digestion, creation, facilitating classes, being in crowded spaces with lots of people, at birthday parties where I used to run away from cause it would feel terrible in my body.
I realized my body doesn’t have much of a point of view. It has awareness. It knows. It’s amazing.
And I’m allowing more and more things and people to contribute to it, which is quite a journey and a practice in receiving.
The freedom my body currently has and my allowance of other people has gotten to such a degree that i can be totally aware of it and not lock it into my body anymore, what used to happen all the time. Even if the awarenesses are really intense and make my body ‘hurt’ for a moment. Another 10 seconds…
I hardly judge what I ingest into my body anymore. I sense what to eat and what not to eat. When it’s the last bite of food, is the last bite of food. Even if it’s what other people consider bad food or not the right food.
Most of the time I simply have peace with my body.
OMG! What a gift!
I ask. I receive. “Body, can we have more muscles here please?” or “Body, what would you like to eat?”
And my body let’s me know “computer away NOW, and MOVE” or “that was enough” or “no, don’t sit over here. Sit over there”
Mostly It’s not even cognitive anymore. I’ve stopped thinking about it. Thinking blocks the awareness of our body.
Our Body Awareness
Embodiment (expensive word for many, I know 😉 ) CAN be amazing and blissful. I’ve been creating towards it for years now. Probably since birth.
The joy you can have with your body is incredible when you have no or less judgments about it and locked into it.
Everything becomes a contribution. The good, bad, the beautiful and ugly. Everything can Be around you without having – much – of an impact on your body. And you can choose from your awareness.
And I know: this is not an answer or solution. As long as I’m willing to be with my body and be in my body, enjoy it and not judge it, everything follows and creates naturally.
I’ve learned: The moment I start fixing in stead of wonder or ask a question, I create pain. I’ve know it along, and the phenomenal Access tools allowed me to change this and actualize a reality with my body that is way beyond everything I could have ever imagined.
A reality where I can have ease, peace an joy with my body.
To allow my body to have his awareness and not judge it or make it my own and lock it in.
To consider everything as a possibility even if others say it’s not the right thing to do or choose and still be able to choose it if it.
Fuck that.
I’m creating my embodiment. No one else is. And this is MY BODY, no one else’s.
Thank you body. Sweet body.
So grateful for the Access Tools, Access Bars and the Body processes that keep on giving and creating more possibilities. For the choice to keep on choosing.
And for the awarenesses my body gives me.
And so super grateful for Rain Soul. I’ve been taking this pure nutrition from seeds since January and is has made such a remarkable difference in the lightness, ease, health and freedom in my body. Not to mention, beautiful thick curls, super easy digestion and a soft and smooth skin…
So…
How much JOY and GREATNESS is possible with our bodies?
Pretty darn happy and proud!
Enchanted faces at our Classes. I’m still amazed by what a simple hands on energetic body process can create. Not a lot of words or questions… yet full on amazement and presence: with their hands, eyes, body and energy.
So happy to be Living!
Body doesn’t have that much of a point of view… and it does seem to have this willingness to move, be loved, be strong, cared for, to heal and be happy, to even give it words…
Merlijn Wolsink 