HOSPITAL ADVENTURES

14322322_10153708616470736_3132392437325358312_nBusy check up today, September 12 2016

This is me.

Body is doing great. YES, I still have check ups after last years adventure, when things got really messy.

I’m making peace with my life and the world around me. For as far as I can, I’ve been looking at where my life is still messy and I’m cleaning up. My sick and hospital adventure created a lot of weird things with other people, that I am not happy with or proud of at all.

It’s bringing up so much than I ever wanted to create, or for people to get stuck with.

Not all fun, fairly uncomfortable yet very freeing to finally give it air to breathe and change.

I’ve had enough of being resentful in any way.
I’m alive, that is what matters to me.

I used to resist hospitals and medicine in all forms and ways. I was convinced and told that it was not ‘conscious’ enough and I was stupid enough to believe it.

Now I don’t resist anymore. It’s a choice to create with and to receive help when I need it, even though I didn’t want to at first.

I realized I used to not show or share this part of my life, to uphold a certain image.

“Will people still like me if they know that I have my flaws too? That I’m not perfect? That I landed up in the hospital while I’m facilitating body work and consciousness after all… So I should be enlightened and perfect, right…?”

Like it’s not allowed to be there.

Fuck that.
This is part of my life too.
This can be on Social Media too

This is me, with all my good, bad, ugly and beautiful.

Consciousness includes everything and judges nothing. Everything is possible and everything is a possibility.

So truly grateful for everyone that contributed to me when I needed them so much, to go through this and recover, to help me to build up my life again.

If I ever created any weird shit in your universe, by not being present, or by making things secret, or with whatever, I’d like to know. Please reach out to me and let’s talk.

Celebrate life and creation my friends.
It’s precious. Enjoy it. 

❤️

What JOY can you BE…?

14202734_10153690829660736_8968226208327422613_nI wonder…?
And guess what… It’s a Choice my Sweet friends!

Just keep choosing it! Choice by choice… Moment by moment…

And what if we were not to judge ourselves for not being Joy and Happy all the time?

Just saying… 😉

Never give up!
YOUR choice will create!

☀️💛🕊

#choosejoy #choosehappy #choicebychoice#liftyouup

#NoBarriers #Grenzeloos

merlijn-2973The more I live without barriers
The more I drop my self created shields
The more judgments I choose to let go
The more judgments I learn to receive
The more I choose to not protect myself
The more I choose to be vulnerable
The more I learn to receive all of me

The happier and full of life I become
And BE

❤️✨

#NoBarriers

Hoe meer ik zonder barrières leef
Hoe meer ik zelf gecreëerde schilden laat vallen
Hoe meer oordelen ik kies te laten gaan
Hoe meer oordelen ik leer te ontvangen
Hoe meer ik kies om mezelf niet te beschermen
Hoe meer ik kies om kwetsbaar te zijn
Hoe meer ik leer om alles wat ik ben te ontvangen

Hoe gelukkiger en vol leven ik word
en Ben

❤️✨

#Grenzeloos

Photo by Isabeau Bosscher Fotografie

A different point of view… can change our BODIES

1930495_27257515735_8362_nI took this picture 8 Years ago at Jacob’s Pillow’s Jazz and Musical Theatre Intensive with the amazing Chet Walker.

A Truly life changing experience that has kept on creating more in my entire life.

During my dance education my arms were mostly judged and vilified as

“crooked” “ugly” “droopy” and “not right”

I had totally bought the belief my arms were ugly, which I had been using to not stretch out, not be different, not stand out as it didn’t fit the school standards

“we are not sure if your body is good enough for a professional dance career”

As a true ‘humanoid’ of course I did everything in my power to prove that that wasn’t true and I changed and kept on changing my body from a ‘broomstick’ into in everything that was required for all the different theatre jobs I had at many, many theatre shows that successfully followed.

And of course I kept on ‘AWing’ the school board during all of that 😝

Chet was the first person in my entire dance education that said:

“Merlijn, you have such amazing long and beautiful arms, you should use them”

😳

A different point of view that totally changed my life and my reality with my body, that went beyond just hard work into acknowledging more greatness. Even if it was just a little crack in the door at that time.

Thank you Chet ❤️

Enough of the judgments of bodies.

So grateful for my body and its ability to move and dance and so grateful for the people that have inspired me to be and inspire myself.

What else is possible I haven’t considered yet?

Be Happy, Be Free, Be You

be-happy-be-you-be-free-tshirs-03Going VIRAL! I LOVE this!!!

My #BeHappyBeFreeBeYou shirts are being ordered from all over the world! 🙏🏻

My own order has arrived this afternoon!

Fresh out of the package 👍🏻👕😍
Feels so great to wear it!

And SO awesome that people from all over the world are wearing a T-shirt made by me! 🎉

I was wearing the soft PINK version yesterday, which was already changing the world around me…

I forgot for a moment I was wearing it untill I realized that people were staring at my chest… with big eyes and a sense of “what is that…?”
😁 YES!

What would it create if more people would wear this?

#BeHappy #BeFree #BeYou #Bodyloving

Healthy and Happy Body

14022275_10153663579085736_374947979464980990_nWanna fly? High…?

Take your Body along for the ride 😉💪🏻

What’s not to say and to know about this…?

After pretty good year, it feels like I have a totally new body that supports me in so many ways… Strong, happy and healthy.

It’s showing me so much, about having ease and peace with all of life.

When I’m having a ‘not so happy’ moment, there’s always my body, totally overriding any unhappiness. With it’s buzzing feet, it’s moving molecules and non judgment.

It’s not new to me. I have been really enjoying it as most of you might know

😉

And I’m acknowledging and receiving it more and more and more… every single day. And it grows! It keeps on growing the more I notice it. This co-creation thing is so amazing!

What if having a healthy body starts with a having a happy body?

What judgments about it… could you loose…?

#bodyloving #healthy #happy #body #embodiment

Creation all around…

14199248_10153698504400736_8191030736662589497_nFull on creation day and still going.

Awesome Bars Exchange in between and enjoying a glass of wine at the fire with my laptop, such dear friends

😉✨🔥🍸

Enjoying what all my friends worldwide are choosing and creating. Babies are being born… People choose happy, healthy and possible and choosing more as their own choice, despite all that is going on on the planet.

Very inspiring. Thank you all!

❤️

So grateful for the ease and peace in my life and body, and for everyone contributing to it. And for myself choosing and having it.

What else is possible I haven’t considered yet?

✨🌅

What if PAIN doesn’t have to be forever…?

14030745_10153646216585736_1511352017_n-2What if PAIN doesn’t have to be forever?

Earlier this week I realized that… I have had NO PAIN in my body for at least 4 months.
I was waiting for the train and just noticed my body walk and stand lightly on the train platform.

It was such an amazing ‘light flash’ moment and an acknowledgement of what I’d apparently taken for granted.

YES, I’ve been creating towards this, especially the last year where I made the demand of me to have more joy with my body than I ever imagined possible. It worked! How does it get even better?

So funny how we usually mostly or only acknowledge the heavy and painful things, and if it’s light and easy. Mostly light and easy are not even considered to be true or real and it goes by unacknowledged.

It’s not that I don’t sense anything anymore in my body. I’ve had many intense awarenesses in, through and going by my body from which pretty much none have turned into PAIN locked into my body.

WOW.

Out-creating my own reality with my body. I’ve known what tools to use and BE with, while being in this world, living and walking around on this planet, having people around me, creating my life. And if something was about get locked in, I’ve been able to easily change it.

My body is so light and easy with everything. Food, movement, sex, healing, digestion, creation, facilitating classes, being in crowded spaces with lots of people, at birthday parties where I used to run away from cause it would feel terrible in my body.

I realized my body doesn’t have much of a point of view. It has awareness. It knows. It’s amazing.

And I’m allowing more and more things and people to contribute to it, which is quite a journey and a practice in receiving.

The freedom my body currently has and my allowance of other people has gotten to such a degree that i can be totally aware of it and not lock it into my body anymore, what used to happen all the time. Even if the awarenesses are really intense and make my body ‘hurt’ for a moment. Another 10 seconds…

I hardly judge what I ingest into my body anymore. I sense what to eat and what not to eat. When it’s the last bite of food, is the last bite of food. Even if it’s what other people consider bad food or not the right food.

Most of the time I simply have peace with my body.

OMG! What a gift!

I ask. I receive. “Body, can we have more muscles here please?” or “Body, what would you like to eat?”

And my body let’s me know “computer away NOW, and MOVE” or “that was enough” or “no, don’t sit over here. Sit over there”

Mostly It’s not even cognitive anymore. I’ve stopped thinking about it. Thinking blocks the awareness of our body.

14089474_10153648134225736_2097942508_nOur Body Awareness

Embodiment (expensive word for many, I know 😉 ) CAN be amazing and blissful. I’ve been creating towards it for years now. Probably since birth.

The joy you can have with your body is incredible when you have no or less judgments about it and locked into it.

Everything becomes a contribution. The good, bad, the beautiful and ugly. Everything can Be around you without having – much – of an impact on your body. And you can choose from your awareness.

And I know: this is not an answer or solution. As long as I’m willing to be with my body and be in my body, enjoy it and not judge it, everything follows and creates naturally.

I’ve learned: The moment I start fixing in stead of wonder or ask a question, I create pain. I’ve know it along, and the phenomenal Access tools allowed me to change this and actualize a reality with my body that is way beyond everything I could have ever imagined.

A reality where I can have ease, peace an joy with my body.
To allow my body to have his awareness and not judge it or make it my own and lock it in.
To consider everything as a possibility even if others say it’s not the right thing to do or choose and still be able to choose it if it.

Fuck that.

I’m creating my embodiment. No one else is. And this is MY BODY, no one else’s.

Thank you body. Sweet body.

So grateful for the Access Tools, Access Bars and the Body processes that keep on giving and creating more possibilities. For the choice to keep on choosing.

And for the awarenesses my body gives me.

And so super grateful for Rain Soul. I’ve been taking this pure nutrition from seeds since January and is has made such a remarkable difference in the lightness, ease, health and freedom in my body. Not to mention, beautiful thick curls, super easy digestion and a soft and smooth skin…

So…

How much JOY and GREATNESS is possible with our bodies?

Let’s have some FUN in the SUN

13769393_10153588772785736_2360936692822275711_n“The ☀️SUN☀️ is the star at the center of the Solar System and is by far the most important source of energy for life on Earth.”

How could you not enjoy it?
I love receiving the sun…

I used to get SUNBURNED a lot as a kid.
The sun was somewhat a dangerous thing.

*PANIC*
“Watch out! You are so red! You might get sun burned!”

So funny, as my skin is reddish in winter too, when most of my skin doesn’t see much sun… peculiar… 😏

Ever since I started to let go of my points of view about what the sun would do to my skin – including all diseases I could possibly get from it – and changed my own mind about it, I hardly get sunburned anymore… 😎

I use my awareness to know when to get in the sun, or get out of the sun, to use sunscreen, or to not use it.

How can the sun, the main source of light, be dangerous or harmful if you use your own awareness?

Isn’t it great how you can change the way your body responds to things, by only changing a point of view…? 😉

Let’s have some FUN in the SUN

#BeTheSpace

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What if… you could…

Keep your own SPACE
Be it
Don’t contract
Don’t go into the intensity of the drama

Just acknowledge it, you can’t change what has happened

Every judgment you add now, will create more of it for the future
Every charged energy you give to the insanity, will make that reality more solid and will make it last longer

What energy, space and consciousness can we BE to contribute to the changes on the planet?

‪#‎BeTheSpace‬

Wat als…
Jij jouw RUIMTE kan houden
Jouw ruimte kan ZIJN
Verkramp niet, trek het niet samen
Duik niet in de intensiteit van het drama

Erken het
Je kan niet veranderen wat er gebeurd is

Elk oordeel wat je nu toevoegt, creëert meer oordeel voor de toekomst
Elke beladen energie die je de waanzin geeft, zet die realiteit nog vaster en maakt dat deze langer zal duren

Wat voor energie, ruimte en bewustzijn kunnen wij ZIJN om bij te dragen aan de veranderingen op de planeet?

#BenDeRuimte

Was wenn….. du könntest…

Deinen eigenen RAUM besitzen
Es sein
Dich nicht zusammenziehen
Nicht in die Intensität des Dramas gehen würdest.

Anerkenne es einfach,
Du kannst nicht verändern, was
Passiert ist

Jede Bewertung die du
Jetzt hinzufügst, wird mehr davon in der Zukunft kreieren
Jede geladene Energie, die du diesem Irrsinn gibst, wird diese Realität
Solider machen und das alles wird länger dauern.

Welche Energie, welcher Raum und welches Bewußtsein können wir SEIN um den Veränderungen am Planeten beizutragen?

#SeiderRaum

German translation by Katrin Heitzer

Et si…tu pouvais…

Maintenir ton ESPACE
Etre cet espace
Ne pas te contracter
Ne pas aller dans l’intensité du drame

Reconnais-le simplement, tu ne peux pas changer ce qui s’est passé

Chaque jugement que tu ajoutes maintenant, créera plus de cela dans le futur
Chaque énergie chargée que tu donnes à la folie, rendra cette réalité plus solide et la fera durer plus longtemps

Quelle énergie, espace et conscience pouvons-nous ETRE pour contribuer aux changements sur la planète?

#EtreCetEspace

French translation by Sylvia Mottier